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(no subject) [Jul. 24th, 2011|12:03 am]
madelyn
omg scratch everything I ever said about this mofo.he has no game whatsoever. none. are you fo real though?
there are so many things I'm just not even gonna say. whatever yo. fuck yo punk ass.

tomorrow's gonna be so kickass!
I thought I was gonna die when I came up my creepy ass driveway just now. but it was just cats, I think? I hope. I hate living here so goddamn much! it frazzles my nerves. PEOPLE HAVE BEEN SHOT ON THE NEXT STREET OVER, okay? I heard the fucking gunshots. little old ladies. getting shot. I'm a helpless white chick that has no car so I'm stuck walking the dangerous streets. I'm the next rape victim!
great my internet just stopped working. wtf?

okay it's back and my chicken pot  pie is ready. lataaaa
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(no subject) [Jul. 23rd, 2011|03:24 pm]
madelyn
[Mood |mellowmellow]

supposedly I'm getting moola soon so I'm gonna buy my ass a new backpack. possibilies:
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I also want to get some minnetonkas

and I want to buy some GOOD jeans that are the right inseam and fit perfectly n shit.

so my fan has been working like a piece of poop all summer and last night, all hot, sweaty, and determined, I got to the bottom of it. meaning, I wiped all the dust off it (there was A LOT) and now it's amazing and I had a kickass sleep despite the hot as balls weather and I'm chillin in front of this thing right now and mmmmmmm. I don't wanna move for the rest of the day.

I'm going to see rihanna tomorrow night! I can't fucking wait. I've been waiting all summer for this.
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2011|03:40 pm]
madelyn
[Mood |hotgonna die]

omg it's hot as balls. where are my friends I need to go to the beach right meow.

okay aaaaand you're online, I'm online so talk to me talk to me talk to me!!!!
I'd obviously be completely ecstatic.
aww :(
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(no subject) [Jul. 21st, 2011|07:13 pm]
madelyn
[Mood |boredbored]

blargh  I'm sick of sitting at home alone in my room with no one to talk to and nothing to do.
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(no subject) [Jul. 21st, 2011|02:55 pm]
madelyn
[Mood |hopefulhopeful]

last night I had an amazing dream :)
sometimes I dream about certain aspects of the future. like I dreamt about the last pirates of the carribbean movie unknowingly once. certain symbols or elements in my dreams appeared in the movie when I watched it for the first time a few days after. but anyway, hopefully this dream is futuristic in some sense...because that would be kickass.

maybe going to target today. nothing else to talk about. my brain is super girly right now and I need to maybe stop because it's been super girly all night and all yesterday and the day before that. but it's getting worse....oh fuck.
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(no subject) [Jul. 20th, 2011|04:35 pm]
madelyn
[Mood |chipperchipper]

DISSSSS NIGGA!!!!
he liked my status again. this proves it. if only I could grow a pair and actually talk to him...no wait, he should grow a pair. I don't bite. we've talked before a few times. don't be a shy kinda guy.
ugh the most it will probably come down to is we'll be *~status liking buddies~* because we're both too shy to make the first move...actually I did make the first move back in junior year. it was not exactly reciprocated...I'm hopeless. he's hopeless. we're all fucking hopeless!
oh mah glob.

today I layed out for a lonnnng time and now my charm pits are buttery brown for some reason. like they are wayyyyyyyy tan. probably the most tan part of my body atm. why. aside from the usual crapola, I am in a pretty good mood today. I'm hungry as a butt though. I should probably go get ready to do absolutely nothing. big brother tonight! even though I already know what happens...
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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2011|02:41 pm]
madelyn
[Mood |tiredtired]

okay so I liked something he posted on fbook and then he liked my status yo!
that obviously means he wants me, right?
the feeling are mutual, eh?

I'm going to be desperate and read way too much into this and start planning our future lol.

I wish it would be sunny for more than 5 minutes because I'm starting to get rillll tan. well, my legs are. which hasn't happened to me since I was a wee one probably. blah I hardly slept last night. for the longest time I was in that state between sleeping and just lying there. I wasn't really conscious, but I wasn't asleep. that usually happens to me when I take a nap. idk why I couldn't sleep. it was like 5 in the mo' and I had just watched the 4th hp. I don't think I slept enough cause i feel like shit.

well, catch ya on the flip side.
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(no subject) [Jul. 18th, 2011|03:01 pm]
madelyn
I just woke up from the craziest of all dreams. first I dreamt about aliens, then math/french class, then an ancient civiliation.
okay in the dream about aliens, I was standing inside some unknown place and there was a big landing pad. the people I knew (can't identify them, but I knew them I guess so maybe they were my friends) didn't believe me when I told them about aliens coming. they left but I stayed right up where the aliens would land. then I giant yellow and silver diamond shaped spaceship descended from the sky and landed. normal looking people got out. I was thinking in my head that it was weird that they looked normal and that they will probably talk in a weird accent or something. a woman was the only alien I really remember seeing and she said something I don't remember but she said it with a normal accent. I think I felt pain at some point or maybe some strong influence to get on board the spaceship. maybe I was waiting for it to take me home lol.

then my dream about class. it was a high school setting. but it was a college class cause I remember it was supposed to be french 102. but for some reason it was mathesque. like french math. the teacher was this huge bitch. I sat next to this girl that I was really good friends with but I have no idea who it was. I honestly think it was the girl from freaks and geeks. idk. it was the first day of class and there was a worksheet with problems on it and I had no idea what I was doing really. but then I solved them I guess. idk stupid dream.

then I was walking on a beach (I frequently dream of beaches) with my scoobs. I found this giant sandy platform next to some rocks and there was a bunch of red seaweed and crabs and spiders? I cleaned it off, saw inscriptions on the platform and a little hole in the middle. I thought to myself that it was part of a ritual. I was standing on it with megan and we said some word that was on a rock or something near us. it was like uipaypay or whatever. then the hole opened up and we fell. we were right below the platform and we were caged in and we could see the way out of the beach. somehow we made it out.

so I don't know wtf is up with all that but yeaahh.

ugh my mom just left for work and I wanted to ask her for money to buy lipstick.
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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2011|09:34 pm]
madelyn
I just cleaned out my fish tank and everything in it.
if that's not cause for celebration, idk what is.
but i dont wanna celebrate cause I'm lonely as fuck right now.I wish I had someone to talk to. or dinner. what an uneventful day. my friends are all mia and we're probably not going to hang out at all. it's already 9.

sometimes I can't wrap my brain around how much everything is changing. all the time. it was probably always this frequent and intense but now I'm noticing it a lot. routines changing. people changing. time seems like it's going at warp speed. life seems so short now. I feel jaded all the time. like, there's gotta be more to this, ya know? maybe I'm just old now. I feel like I'm wasting my life. sitting here. but a day chillin at home is always a good thing. I hate feeling like I'm stuck in a loop but I guess that's what existence is: a giant loop. infinity. which at times can feel rather mundane. I want to go sit under the giant tree in my yard that I've named Tree Lo Green. hahaaaa. nature always quiets my mind. it's being stuck inside this house in this city where it's nothing but buildings and cars and concrete. it's being stuck inside my mind, inside some demon part of me that doesn't let me escape. it's the part of me that doesn't let me express my ideas and make them a reality. I want to kill that part of me. it's pure evil. it's so bad and in an instant is can take over all the good parts of me. so that there's just sadness. the only way I can express what's going on inside is to just put my fingers up to the keyboard and let my soul do all the typing. I think maybe I should meditate. but I hate consciously not doing anything. but really, what am I doing now? absolutely nothing. I have a lot of problems in my mind. I have all this stuff to worry about. I don't even wanna go back and read this shit i just typed. I think I'm just stir crazy and bat shit crazy and livin la vida loca. maybe if I had a life or a distraction from my own brain, which has bitched enough today so I'm gonna watch some buffy...
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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2011|05:44 pm]
madelyn
[Mood |flirtyflirty]

aww having a crush on someone that you will probably never ever get with is so sad. cute. but sad.
I'm still determined though >=(
I mean, stop being so great. stop being funny and smart and adorable. stop having a job and a car and your life together. just stop it.
ugh I pray to god we have a class together this year. you will be mine!
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